It Wasn’t Meant to Be

What Wasn't Meant to BeDo you ever find yourself feeling guilty if you think about eating a food that isn’t on your normal eating plan?  Do you think of certain foods as absolutely forbidden?  I always tell people that the great thing about Weight Watchers is that you can eat whatever you want as long as you account for it.  I have to be honest and say that I very rarely take advantage of this fact.

When I started my weight loss journey, even though I knew that Weight Watchers allowed me to eat any food I wanted, I developed the mindset that there were certain foods I would just never be able to have again.  While there are certain trigger foods which that is definitely true for (i.e. peanut butter), there are other foods that I could allow myself that I have chosen not to; mostly because I’m too thrifty with my Points Plus® and don’t like to spend too many of them at any one meal.

While this approach has worked for me over the last almost three years, it can also leave me feeling deprived from time to time and we all know that those feelings of deprivation can lead to making poor decisions.  I am really trying to change my thinking from the all or nothing approach to everything in moderation.  I am trying to learn that many foods are allowable as long as I treat them as treats and not every day staples.  Let’s face it, I did not end up weighing 370 lbs. because I only ate cookies or ice cream every once in a while.  When I was at my heaviest, I never made the distinction between a treat and a daily food item.  If I wanted it, I ate it and I ate as much as I wanted.

Well here I am, almost three years down the road and weighing between 165 lbs. and 169 lbs. less than I did (depending on what week it is) and I feel like I am capable of making much better decisions today than I was this time three years ago.  So when Michael and I found out about a landmark restaurant closing in our town and he said he really wanted to take me there because they had some of the best pizza, I felt like it would be possible to enjoy this experience without completely derailing my weight loss efforts.  The key is planning and since Michael knows how important it is to me to be able to plan for the foods I want to eat, he gave me 5 days advance notice so I would have plenty of time to plan for my pizza.  This was great because I knew what I could and could not do in the days leading up to this meal and I could sit down to the table prepared.

So…after all of this planning and preparation, imagine our disappointment when then waitress came to the table to take our order and promptly informed us that they could no longer make pizzas as they are running out of food.  I have to be honest; I wasn’t prepared for that one.  After preparing for several days for this meal, I ended up with grilled chicken salad and since the waitress never brought the dressing I asked for, the meal ended up being 5 Points Plus® with the chicken and the boiled egg it had on it.

Pizza                                                                                                                                                                 Grilled Chicken Salad

I have to say, I was a little bummed because I had worked myself up for pizza but at the same time, I felt a little bit of relief because circumstances out of my control kept me from having to leave my comfort zone.  I am a firm believer that we all need to step out of our comfort zones in order to grow but I am also a firm believer that things happen for a reason and I believe that what happened at the restaurant meant that me eating pizza yesterday, wasn’t meant to be.  When the time is right, I know there will be pizza in my future.  Until then, I will be thankful for grilled chicken salads and the company I get to enjoy during my meal.

Timing Is Everything

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